midnight post

i got my pink signature :) isn't it cute? :))

it's already about 50 min something after midnight. But i was really excited tonight. Thanks to Allah, i got my result tonight which i can't thankful enough for Him. Alhamdulillah. What can i say here is that my effort of slogging with books for about 3 weeks was not worth the result. It was like there was something helping me out during the exams. Frankly speaking, the revision weeks should be 3 weeks and the first week was a honey moon for me as i only finished about 2 topics out of about 100++. For the second week, i was back at uitm, craving over shorten time, but still had my time watching over some korean movies n dramas. Hate me for that. Then, out of 5 modules, i took 2 weeks to finish 1 modules (the GIT). Crying over my left over time, to finish up another 4 modules which i still couldn't finish it up till the last moment, i took my dad's advice, just flip over the pages, rewind back what u have learnt before, in spite of getting into the topics. Just revise, not study. Actually his advice should be appropriate if i had mastered the subject before, and i was mistakenly applied it before i mastered the topics. That was just me. Love to take the simplest road but my dear, medicine is not about simple things. It is all about the most complicated things. Trying to play with the life of others. Sigh. Why i chose this road? Because i want to help the people. And i really hope i am capable enough one day. Ok, back to the stories of my miserable revision weeks, the thing i was amused by myself was that i can remain cool, calm without feeling stress through the weeks. But of course on the big day, my heart just like want to jump out. But after recite some doa, zikrullah, and be tawakkal to Allah, i gained my spirit back, there i off to my war. :)

Dear me and friends, Allah always there for us, never give up hope on Him

He always there

calming us whenever we are feared

helping us whenever we are so helpless

caring for us whenever no one cares

" He who comes closer to Me one span, I come closer to him a cubit; and he who comes closer to Me a cubit, I come closer to him a fathom; and if he comes to Me walking, I come to him running".

[Al-Bukhari and Muslim].

" Apabila seorang hamba mendekatkan diri kepada-Ku sejengkal, maka Aku mendekat kepadanya sehasta; apabila dia mendekat kepada-Ku sehasta, maka Aku akan mendekat kepadanya sedepa; dan apabila ia datang kepada-Ku dengan berjalan, maka Aku datang kepadanya dengan berlari.”

(HR. Bukhari)

What i can say here is that, no matter how hard we had struggled, it was Him the decider at last. Allah is the most fair. To the extent of our effort, that was the extent He will give our share.

So my dear friends and me, lets look upon the days beyond n hoping for His bless, left the uninspired moments behind. This world is big enough for us to give up!