there is no tears

i feel like wanna cry. i do want to cry. there's being a time since i cried. Lately, everything was going so smoothly. No hardy bumps at all, till i idled myself. From every aspect. Just enjoying the nature of being careless. Careless of letting go the things i shouldn't, careless of doing something bullshit, careless of fallen to the untouchable thing. The spring had gone. I could feel the crack inside of my heart. Drought has taken over. I felt tense. Just like everything besides me is pushing me to a corner of loneliness. Where do you go when a friend becomes a stranger? I tried my best to keep a friend just not to the name. But could it be me the one used to be over much sensitive? This day, most things that happen nearly brought me to tears but i don't let it. I grab myself to the best of myself, hold on to my

heart. As i believe i am stronger than i thought i could be. But at least, i just want to let go of the sorrow, the frustration, the rejected side of me by crying. But it won't as i knew my lacrimal ducts have developed tolerance to the pain.