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i don't know that today was the first of october. erm knowing this right now i think i should turn a new book. what i mean is be brand new. could i? i've been loosing my mind through this week which i don't know what exactly the underlying problems. The diagnosis is i'm a mania. haha. I've been wandering all day long during lectures, wondering through the night over the past regrets. How i really wish i am not here. How i wish i was there! How i wish i am that. How i wish i am not this. I am a kind of person who have slow adaptation to failure, rejection and other ugly things in life. I can be bothered of those throughout all my life. So those who annoyed me i am truly sorry if i couldn't erase what had happened before. i still could remember some ugly things that happened to me when i was a child. Do you think that being ignorant means that i forgot what YOU had done to me? Those masks surround your body, i hope you wouldn't shed it away. YOU are way better in those masking robe. Yep, do you know that a child could bring the personality she'd been brought up? Ok enough of rambling of my past which i think i'll just let it go. Too much regrets in the past wont affect my future if i dare to let it go. Right? So i think it is the best for me to let those shitty thought of my mind go to dustbin. My main plan, my crushes, my rivals, my haters,

my plans. Ahha there is another thing bothering my mind right now. Elective project. i think i've mentioned my group should renew the proposal. But i still don't have the idea. There is a thing that i'm not satisfied with but be patient je laa. I'm the lamest person kot.