the day after tomorrow, there is going to a be function, a health function that interests me more that going out to movie but what's bothering me right now is that man is going to be there. A man i got allergies to. Hell no i can't get close to him. It's like i'll froze out the moment i know he's arounds even by not looking at him. And the second i look into his face, there will be rollercoaster race running through my veins. So how on earth i would survive the function with him dancing around? I hate it. Seriously i don't like this kind of feeling. How can i avoid all this thing? How could i pretend there is nothing i feel about him since i am the baddest actress in the whole world. It's really killing me to be in this situation. I kinda know that this feeling is one sided, and i know there would never be any seat for me beside him, and i always know i'm invisible for him. But , i swear i never ever rule a wish to path the way with him. Before i am a kind of girl who dare to daydream of sitting with anonymous guys in the future, running the errands together. With him, i never done that, and i don't dream about him. Seriously i'm better off without him. It's just my heart and brain that rule out the reality. Whenever we're in class, i lost my focus when i saw him, and how i wish i would never ever met him. He is no match for me, he deserves someone hotter, someone prettier, someone crazier. I don't want to live with someone that going to give dopamine surge like him. Instead, i'm looking for oxytocin booster. Square and root, i am not going to that health function though i know it is really beneficial for a medical student. I'm off with my bestever cousin then.
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