Assalamualaikum
It has been quite some time that i wrote here. It's not that i don't have the idea to write a thing, too much thoughts to wander of, but somehow i got sulked over the blogger maintenance problem few days back. I was in the middle of an essay that i saw at the bottom, draft failed to save which i didn't give a thought before. As happily i clicked the publish post's button, there you go this maintenance things. My post was gone. And i felt like i was going to shut off my blog ^^. but i decided not to at last. It was just a childish act after all if i did. And now, i am counting the days to something that gonna happens only once in my life. Thank you Allah for all the bless. And no, i am not getting married yet ;] .
Sometimes, when i looked back on my life goal, and how it turned not the way i planned, and how the fate played the role (of course with the efforts), i was ashamed of myself of how not thankful i was for all those great things Allah granted me. He gives you not the thing you want but the things you need.
Ok enough. Do you guys ever heard of " wear my heart on my sleeve" quote? Hey if you guys ever watched gossip girl, do you remember on blair's trend on putting her heart shaped pin on her lover's sleeve so that he wears her heart on his sleeve?
Basically, my heart on my sleeve would refer to someone that express their feeling, emotions openly for all to see. She is not a someone that would hide anything as she is not good at hiding it. I think it is good actually to wear your heart on your sleeve but i am not that type of girl. I used to hold back much of my feelings, as i rather not gaining the attention. I am not saying that i like the sound of aloofness, which is totally wrong but i somehow do not like the crowds of stranger bugging on my problems like they care. Most of them actually care, but they care to talk rather than understand the root of the problem. To those who ever being with me, thoroughly supporting me, cheering me up with their hearts, i owed them my soul. Allah has gifted me with amazing family and friends and i love them with my life. But still, i prefer not to wear my heart on my sleeve on certain things even with them.
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