Assalamualaikum
You know what, i'm feeling nostalgic right now. Like seriously as i was chatting with someone i adored back then, just now.Note; it is a past tense. But still, i felt so gushingly self mutilated mushy right now, back to a teeny girl mood. Sangat euw, i know that. To any readers here who know that someone (you know who you are), do back off okay,please :) . The night was originally sultry, with me giggling over some fun updates and gossips with my girlfriends till he popped in. Freaking out, i tried to calm, breathe in for a moment and there you go. Talking so randomly about weather of how sunny the days are, his well beings and such, my heart kinda getting a surcharge pacemaker. So hardly producing any sounds, yet it jumped through my head. Blah blah blah. And i got so nervous that i replied him nonsensically. For past, i was dumbfounded even just got to say hi or bye or smile to him or.... maybe even now. Erghh, i am this kind of person. I can't live with someone i like. I will not be the real me as i would tend to say, behave and act differently. Is it the only me having this? Raise your hand girl if you are on the same cruise with me. How i wish that i'm so not going to end up with the man that could drive me crazy inside but well mannered outside (haha). I want the other way round actually. Enough talk. Have a sleep moon dreaming girl !
p/s; don't worry, i only have this para-session-syndromes just for a while. Maybe appearing offline for a whole week for therapeutic purpose, no?
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