Sometimes, merely always i used to think about others that higher rank people with those money, charming body n brilliant mind. Considering how lucky there are really throbbing my heart just i'm not one of them. I once used to blame fate, dreaming me be born in a family with silver spoon in my hands. I hate myself for that, never be satisfied with who i am. But as i realised the moment i had today could never bought with money, thinking about those people in Iraq n slum areas touch my sanity to back to the ground. I'm a girl who been raised in a moderate family with no treasure but thankful good enough to live our life. Being surrounded by those friends who had everything i can only dream about sometimes make me sick daydreaming to be them. I know my family could not effort me for that but being a teenager i hardly can resist the power of agony in myself to being jealous n hating myself. But as i grow up, i see the world from bigger perspective. The things i had in my life is enough for me to survive in this unfair world. I had my mom, dad, brothers, family who i will never grant for anything. They are the treasure i had i am lucky to have them. The figure of being someone else that pop in a rich family does not interest me anymore. Be real is the best thing i can satisfy myself. Only now i can realise them. Tonight, when my cousin and i went to shell to fuel the car, a woman approached us with a smile, showing some large canvas to be sold. Saying no to her, she smiled again n went away. It was already night, n here she still working hard to earn a living. Her hardwork really knocked me down to earth. I am the one who had the chance to study to improve my life never try that hard. I could say that during last semesters i only put little effort in my study. I am really not that grateful person. I know there are many people out there want to see me succeed in my life, at least i want bring some happiness in my mom n dad eyes, before those eyes n my eyes closed entirely forever. I want those eyes that shining the moment i enter this world also will shine the moment we will be apart. For that, i have to take the chance every little moment i have to do my best before fate could play their role. Redha, is what i have to learn.
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